Thought I would do a mid-week check in. Well, the best laid plans of mice and men seem to always change. ha! This week has been one of those weeks, that nothing went as planned. Frustrating to say the least, but in the midst of it all the Lord has enabled me to seek out to trust Him and maintain peace. (very grateful to "The Healing Journey" study for insight and tools to help me with all that!)
I am so grateful for this. I guess I never realized before how much I didn't trust Him in all the little things. To see He is in all my times. I mean, I have always know that, after all I am a good Christian girl, who has done a million Bible studies and even taught retreats, but once I started moving through this healing / transformation, God started to open my eyes to all kinds of things. wow.
So, in the midst of all this stuff, I have not logged what I ate, or done exercise like I hoped, but I have still eaten well each day. But, this is not about being perfect, remember, we become new in the journey not in the deliverance, so it's more about how I am allowing God to transform me in the now. Keeping a "sober judgement" of myself.
I will write the week summery on Sunday or Monday instead of Saturday, because we have a retreat this weekend. In the mean time..."Lord, we thank you that you hear our prayers, that you are there in all our times, in the midst of all the good, and the overwhelming, in the challengers and hopeless times, and in the joy and evidence of answered pray times. Lord continue to help us trust You, and see You and Your love for us in all our times."
More than a sparrow,
Lisa
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Saturday, February 25, 2012
86 Days
Weight loss: -3.6
New Weight: 172.4
Starting Weight: 176
Measurements:
Yippie! I lost almost 4 lbs!!! And this is after only 5 days of eating healthy!!!
Next Week:
The first posts I added a video to "Voice of Truth" from Casting Crowns. Over this past week I have struggled with listening to those lies, and find they make me tired, and discouraged. It was a good first 5 days. Lesson learned? Speak out the Truth, rebuke the voices of the lies, and know the Lord will and IS doing a good work in me!!!!
Moving Forward to this coming week. THEME: Be in the Today
As we move into this week, think about the power of being in the present. How often do we either spend time thinking about the past or about the future. When I focus on the past, I seem to think of things like...."If I only I didn't________", or, "I wish I had'nt eaten that cookie", or it is filled with memories of what I "used to be/do", which can lead me down all kinds of paths titled....failures, mistakes, you've tried this before and it didn't work. etc. Ugh, and then condemnation, and doubt begin to invade my mind, keeping me locked up in the past. Like my life is the sum of all the bad (or good) choices I made. Yuck.
Or when I think about the future, I can begin to worry. Shoot it is crazy what I can worry about in regards to the future: my kids, how will we pay for college, or the bills. What will we do for a job for Steve when he retires.? Will I be able to fit into a bathing suit for our vacation this summer!? ha.
The thing is when we focus on the past we are, in a way, seeking to re-gain control of the past, as if we could re-write it Or when we focus on the future too much, it is also a way to try and be in control. But in truth, I am not in control. Not of the past, the future, or even in this very moment I am existing.
So the key for me this week is to choose to BE in this moment. Not focus on the past, or the future, or even over think today.
May I learn this next week to seek the Lord in this moment. May I draw on all He is in the moment I am within. May I practice the presence of the Lord in the presence. And as I cherish the day I have been given, and am defined by who I am in His presence, things begin to change.
As you go about this next week and the monsters of your past, or the scary worries for your tomorrows, or even the overwhelming tasks or challenges you face in the today hit you and seek to overshadow the gift of the present day, remember to turn to the Lord and practice His presence in that present moment. Every minute is filled with grace and opportunity.
The truth is that the Lord is in every moment of our day. In all the times of our lives He is there, if we stop to see Him. The song for this week is thus: "Times" , by Tenth Ave. North. I love this song. Really listen to the words.. May He be all He is, in all your times. The Redeemer of the past, the Victorious in the present, and the Creator of your future. May we learn to seek Him in the present, love Him, and let Him love us each moment of each day.
More than a Sparrow,
Lisa
p.s. Had a burger and fries at Red Robin today. It was OK. REally not as satisfying as I thought it might be, and then my stomach was upset later. Go figure. :) But tonight for a light supper I Garlic Hummus, with Trisquits, and little mini yellow and red peppers. YUMMY!!! The flavors were so good together!! In fact I found it even better than my "treat meal" :)
New Weight: 172.4
Starting Weight: 176
Measurements:
Yippie! I lost almost 4 lbs!!! And this is after only 5 days of eating healthy!!!
Next Week:
- I have decided to weigh in every Saturday morning.
- I will now add keeping track of calories of what I eat. (I did journal what I ate each day)
- I have decided to allow one "treat" meal a week. For example might go out to eat., fix a nice meal for the family on a Sunday, or on a date with Steve to a nice place. This allows for this flexibility.
- I start exercising on Monday! Ugh. Goal is 5-6 sessions a week, and will be using Jillian's Circuit.
- Will write a main blog on Saturdays. Thought I could do this, so I can reflect back over the past week, and then show a theme that will be for the next week. The other days will be short and sweet.
The first posts I added a video to "Voice of Truth" from Casting Crowns. Over this past week I have struggled with listening to those lies, and find they make me tired, and discouraged. It was a good first 5 days. Lesson learned? Speak out the Truth, rebuke the voices of the lies, and know the Lord will and IS doing a good work in me!!!!
Moving Forward to this coming week. THEME: Be in the Today
As we move into this week, think about the power of being in the present. How often do we either spend time thinking about the past or about the future. When I focus on the past, I seem to think of things like...."If I only I didn't________", or, "I wish I had'nt eaten that cookie", or it is filled with memories of what I "used to be/do", which can lead me down all kinds of paths titled....failures, mistakes, you've tried this before and it didn't work. etc. Ugh, and then condemnation, and doubt begin to invade my mind, keeping me locked up in the past. Like my life is the sum of all the bad (or good) choices I made. Yuck.
Or when I think about the future, I can begin to worry. Shoot it is crazy what I can worry about in regards to the future: my kids, how will we pay for college, or the bills. What will we do for a job for Steve when he retires.? Will I be able to fit into a bathing suit for our vacation this summer!? ha.
The thing is when we focus on the past we are, in a way, seeking to re-gain control of the past, as if we could re-write it Or when we focus on the future too much, it is also a way to try and be in control. But in truth, I am not in control. Not of the past, the future, or even in this very moment I am existing.
So the key for me this week is to choose to BE in this moment. Not focus on the past, or the future, or even over think today.
May I learn this next week to seek the Lord in this moment. May I draw on all He is in the moment I am within. May I practice the presence of the Lord in the presence. And as I cherish the day I have been given, and am defined by who I am in His presence, things begin to change.
As you go about this next week and the monsters of your past, or the scary worries for your tomorrows, or even the overwhelming tasks or challenges you face in the today hit you and seek to overshadow the gift of the present day, remember to turn to the Lord and practice His presence in that present moment. Every minute is filled with grace and opportunity.
The truth is that the Lord is in every moment of our day. In all the times of our lives He is there, if we stop to see Him. The song for this week is thus: "Times" , by Tenth Ave. North. I love this song. Really listen to the words.. May He be all He is, in all your times. The Redeemer of the past, the Victorious in the present, and the Creator of your future. May we learn to seek Him in the present, love Him, and let Him love us each moment of each day.
More than a Sparrow,
Lisa
p.s. Had a burger and fries at Red Robin today. It was OK. REally not as satisfying as I thought it might be, and then my stomach was upset later. Go figure. :) But tonight for a light supper I Garlic Hummus, with Trisquits, and little mini yellow and red peppers. YUMMY!!! The flavors were so good together!! In fact I found it even better than my "treat meal" :)
Friday, February 24, 2012
COUNTDOWN 87 Days
A good day today. The sun was out and that always helps.
I have been working in my sketchbook and that feels good too. Eating went fine today.
Watched a good message today about the Lord bringing us into new things, praying for the Lord to breakthrough and open up flood gates of opportunity and walking in the fulness of all He made me to be to come forth.
Maybe I will post one longer post one day a week, rather than short ones each day.
More than a Sparrow,
Lisa
I have been working in my sketchbook and that feels good too. Eating went fine today.
Watched a good message today about the Lord bringing us into new things, praying for the Lord to breakthrough and open up flood gates of opportunity and walking in the fulness of all He made me to be to come forth.
Maybe I will post one longer post one day a week, rather than short ones each day.
More than a Sparrow,
Lisa
Thursday, February 23, 2012
COUNTDOWN- 88 Days
Today was a snowy cold day. These kinds of days have always made me want to eat a lot, and especially eat cookies and other yummy comfort good things.
But I did not eat any of those things. I did probably eat a bit too much though in regards to amount of food.
Felt a little lost today too. Just wanted to curl up in a blanket and do nothing. Did a bit of work on my Sketchbook Journal and will post a page on my art blog tomorrow.
Just kinda a yucky day.
More than a sparrow,
Lisa
But I did not eat any of those things. I did probably eat a bit too much though in regards to amount of food.
Felt a little lost today too. Just wanted to curl up in a blanket and do nothing. Did a bit of work on my Sketchbook Journal and will post a page on my art blog tomorrow.
Just kinda a yucky day.
More than a sparrow,
Lisa
COUNTDOWN- 89 days, Feb 22nd
Wednesday
In the beginning I think this blog will be more simple and factual. But as I get used to blogging, I hope to write about things the Lord has taught me while being stuck in a rut; about identity, fear, the ugly truth about lies, thoughts I am learning from my Healing Journey class, being the Beloved, and being in Christ.
Well, I have chosen to start exercise next week on Monday. Trying to live life one step at a time. It was just too much to add with all the other stuff I am starting too. I did log all my eating today, and next week will add tracking the calories. And I also believe I have planter faciotous- however you spell it- as my feet really hurt. Need to schedule a Dr. appointment for that.
Tonight was my Healing Journey class up at New Life. wow. Every time I go I just love the teaching at this Bible Study class. I really loved a thought from the lesson a few weeks ago..."It is in the journey you are made new, not in the deliverance." wow!
I am on a journey. A journey through a wilderness. A journey to the promised land. Along this journey I can choose to trust the Lord, listen to truth and make choices that help me live in victory or to listen to lies, worry, and make choices that cause me to live in fear. Both I am sure happen during the journey and whatever happens along the way, God uses it all to make me new.
Are you ready to be made new? What is happening in your journey?
More than a Sparrow.
Lisa
In the beginning I think this blog will be more simple and factual. But as I get used to blogging, I hope to write about things the Lord has taught me while being stuck in a rut; about identity, fear, the ugly truth about lies, thoughts I am learning from my Healing Journey class, being the Beloved, and being in Christ.
Well, I have chosen to start exercise next week on Monday. Trying to live life one step at a time. It was just too much to add with all the other stuff I am starting too. I did log all my eating today, and next week will add tracking the calories. And I also believe I have planter faciotous- however you spell it- as my feet really hurt. Need to schedule a Dr. appointment for that.
Tonight was my Healing Journey class up at New Life. wow. Every time I go I just love the teaching at this Bible Study class. I really loved a thought from the lesson a few weeks ago..."It is in the journey you are made new, not in the deliverance." wow!
I am on a journey. A journey through a wilderness. A journey to the promised land. Along this journey I can choose to trust the Lord, listen to truth and make choices that help me live in victory or to listen to lies, worry, and make choices that cause me to live in fear. Both I am sure happen during the journey and whatever happens along the way, God uses it all to make me new.
Are you ready to be made new? What is happening in your journey?
More than a Sparrow.
Lisa
COUNTDOWN- 90 days, Feb. 21st
Weight: 176 (ugh, highest I have ever been)
Measurements:
Body Fat:
My goal is to post my weight once a week. I am working on making an appointment with a traininer to have my measurements and body fat checked. Can we just say....I AM NOT LOOKING FOWARD to that news!! There will be an update of that monthly. (Maybe the measurements weekly sometimes)
It is my first day of the 90 days redeemed adventure!! My goal this week is to change my eating habits, log my food journal, and seek to capture thoughts that are not victorious thinking.
I tried wearing a badge that said 90 days while out and about, as a way to remind myself, and to let others know, hoping they might ask about the badge and then I can tell them about the blog. No one asked. I bet ya a dollar a donut that they think it 's a sales thing. ha!!
Made it through the entire day! Yeah!
Oh, and I am going to be doing a different blog to show my art stuff. I was wanting to do this on this blog, but the pages I added are static, meaning I can't add new posts, just update and add to the original post. bummer. I will send more info on that later.
More than a sparrow.
Lisa
Measurements:
Body Fat:
My goal is to post my weight once a week. I am working on making an appointment with a traininer to have my measurements and body fat checked. Can we just say....I AM NOT LOOKING FOWARD to that news!! There will be an update of that monthly. (Maybe the measurements weekly sometimes)
It is my first day of the 90 days redeemed adventure!! My goal this week is to change my eating habits, log my food journal, and seek to capture thoughts that are not victorious thinking.
I tried wearing a badge that said 90 days while out and about, as a way to remind myself, and to let others know, hoping they might ask about the badge and then I can tell them about the blog. No one asked. I bet ya a dollar a donut that they think it 's a sales thing. ha!!
Made it through the entire day! Yeah!
Oh, and I am going to be doing a different blog to show my art stuff. I was wanting to do this on this blog, but the pages I added are static, meaning I can't add new posts, just update and add to the original post. bummer. I will send more info on that later.
More than a sparrow.
Lisa
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Read to Soar? Or Stuck in a rut?
Ever feel "stuck in a rut"?
It can feel like you're on a never ending merry go round, that is not so merry. Going round and round, but really going no where.
Or maybe you wake up one day and think.."How did I get here? I really wanted to be, there."
It is like when you are on automatic- pilot driving. You have driven this way to work so many times before and then all of a sudden you find you are driving yourself to work, and it's not even a work day.
Well, I have felt these things. Call them what you will, "stuck in a rut", "out of sync", or just not fully engaged", not "fully alive" with all life and the Lord have for me. How did I get in this rut?
I think this "living in the rut" started with a big change in our life 7 years ago with the house fire. (more on that later). There have been many, many good things as a result of that fire, but somehow I did end up in this lost place too. And here it is, 7 years later, and I am still struggling with my weight, self-doubt, and wishing I could do this, or that.
May 20th, this year, 2012, will be the 7th anniversary of the fire. I don't want arrive at that date staying in this place I have been stuck. Something has to change.
So, I signed up to run a 1/2 marathon. Yes, call me crazy. It was that inner whispering that just said, this is the year, just take a step and do it. Now, you need to understand, I am VERY out of shape (part of that rut I am liven' in), and have not run in years. The race is, interestingly enough, on the actual anniversary of the fire, May 20th. So, I am considering this year, the 7th year, my year of Jubilee. A year the debt is gone, and the captives are set free!!
I have 90 days to get ready for this race and got to thinking how there are all these programs out there that promote how you can change your life in 90 days. (Of course they charge quite a bit for their programs)
Here are a few of the 90- day promises I found.....In 90 days you can...
1. Get Ripped!
2. Have a better you!
3. Get fit for success!
4. Write your novel.
5. 90 day body revolution
I began to the wonder...what could I (through the grace of the Lord), change in my life in 90 days then?
Because if the sky is the limit, and God works in our life to do exceedingly and abundantly beyond all we ask or imagine, then why have I been stuck in this rut? Why do I keep going back to the things that don't satisfy, the 'broken cisterns'? And if I have been given a spirit of power, love and a sound mind, why is fear whispering lies to me that keep me bound up in a lack of belief?
Do you ever feel like this, are you ready to get out of your rut? Then join me then, in this 90 day redeemed revolution, to spread our wings and soar. To step out of things that might be limiting us, to change habits that do not glorify God, or to break free from fears that keep us grounded, or to challenge lies that we have believed that keep us from living the free and abundant life in Christ, and being all He means us to be to glorify Him and His kingdom.
My 90 days starts on Feb. 21st. I have a list of what I want to change/do/experience etc... on my 90 day tab. Keep checking back as I write insights the Lord has given along the journey of moving from "stuck in a rut" to being "set to soar". He has spoken many truths to me over the 7 years of this rut life living. I called it living in the land of "Bacca" (which is a desert life). I want to live like it says in Isaiah.."do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert"
As I write this I hear all the voices that call out to me and tell me, "you've tried to change things before and always go back to your old ways." Or the voice that worries about what all those people out there that might read this post will think about me and what I write, mis-spellings, or try to do, or about my weight etc...blah, blah, blah.....
I know I am tired of those voices and want to step out of the boat, and spread my wings and soar.
So, when will you step out? Wanna join the movement? What do want to see a change in your life in the next 90 day days? How do you want your relationship with the Lord change? Are there some things the Spirit has been whispering to you to do for the Kingdom,?Do you want to break free from habits that keep you in Egypt? Maybe there is something you have always wanted to do, but fear has kept you grounded, or that inner voice has silenced the "Voice of Truth" from singing it's songs of deliverance into your life.
Sign up along with me, and let's keep each other encouraged in our 90 day adventure. You know geese always fly together to ease each others burdens, and cheer each other on. I would love to be that for you, and you can be that for me. If you want to sign up to be a part of the 90 day adventure go to the 90 days page and read more there.
If not, you can always just follow this blog adventure by signing up below and hear about as I seek to listen to the voice of truth, and get out of this rut.
More than a Sparrow,
Lisa Kindermann
It can feel like you're on a never ending merry go round, that is not so merry. Going round and round, but really going no where.
Or maybe you wake up one day and think.."How did I get here? I really wanted to be, there."
It is like when you are on automatic- pilot driving. You have driven this way to work so many times before and then all of a sudden you find you are driving yourself to work, and it's not even a work day.
Well, I have felt these things. Call them what you will, "stuck in a rut", "out of sync", or just not fully engaged", not "fully alive" with all life and the Lord have for me. How did I get in this rut?
I think this "living in the rut" started with a big change in our life 7 years ago with the house fire. (more on that later). There have been many, many good things as a result of that fire, but somehow I did end up in this lost place too. And here it is, 7 years later, and I am still struggling with my weight, self-doubt, and wishing I could do this, or that.
May 20th, this year, 2012, will be the 7th anniversary of the fire. I don't want arrive at that date staying in this place I have been stuck. Something has to change.
So, I signed up to run a 1/2 marathon. Yes, call me crazy. It was that inner whispering that just said, this is the year, just take a step and do it. Now, you need to understand, I am VERY out of shape (part of that rut I am liven' in), and have not run in years. The race is, interestingly enough, on the actual anniversary of the fire, May 20th. So, I am considering this year, the 7th year, my year of Jubilee. A year the debt is gone, and the captives are set free!!
I have 90 days to get ready for this race and got to thinking how there are all these programs out there that promote how you can change your life in 90 days. (Of course they charge quite a bit for their programs)
Here are a few of the 90- day promises I found.....In 90 days you can...
1. Get Ripped!
2. Have a better you!
3. Get fit for success!
4. Write your novel.
5. 90 day body revolution
I began to the wonder...what could I (through the grace of the Lord), change in my life in 90 days then?
Because if the sky is the limit, and God works in our life to do exceedingly and abundantly beyond all we ask or imagine, then why have I been stuck in this rut? Why do I keep going back to the things that don't satisfy, the 'broken cisterns'? And if I have been given a spirit of power, love and a sound mind, why is fear whispering lies to me that keep me bound up in a lack of belief?
Do you ever feel like this, are you ready to get out of your rut? Then join me then, in this 90 day redeemed revolution, to spread our wings and soar. To step out of things that might be limiting us, to change habits that do not glorify God, or to break free from fears that keep us grounded, or to challenge lies that we have believed that keep us from living the free and abundant life in Christ, and being all He means us to be to glorify Him and His kingdom.
My 90 days starts on Feb. 21st. I have a list of what I want to change/do/experience etc... on my 90 day tab. Keep checking back as I write insights the Lord has given along the journey of moving from "stuck in a rut" to being "set to soar". He has spoken many truths to me over the 7 years of this rut life living. I called it living in the land of "Bacca" (which is a desert life). I want to live like it says in Isaiah.."do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert"
As I write this I hear all the voices that call out to me and tell me, "you've tried to change things before and always go back to your old ways." Or the voice that worries about what all those people out there that might read this post will think about me and what I write, mis-spellings, or try to do, or about my weight etc...blah, blah, blah.....
I know I am tired of those voices and want to step out of the boat, and spread my wings and soar.
So, when will you step out? Wanna join the movement? What do want to see a change in your life in the next 90 day days? How do you want your relationship with the Lord change? Are there some things the Spirit has been whispering to you to do for the Kingdom,?Do you want to break free from habits that keep you in Egypt? Maybe there is something you have always wanted to do, but fear has kept you grounded, or that inner voice has silenced the "Voice of Truth" from singing it's songs of deliverance into your life.
If not, you can always just follow this blog adventure by signing up below and hear about as I seek to listen to the voice of truth, and get out of this rut.
More than a Sparrow,
Lisa Kindermann
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