It can feel like you're on a never ending merry go round, that is not so merry. Going round and round, but really going no where.
Or maybe you wake up one day and think.."How did I get here? I really wanted to be, there."
It is like when you are on automatic- pilot driving. You have driven this way to work so many times before and then all of a sudden you find you are driving yourself to work, and it's not even a work day.
Well, I have felt these things. Call them what you will, "stuck in a rut", "out of sync", or just not fully engaged", not "fully alive" with all life and the Lord have for me. How did I get in this rut?
I think this "living in the rut" started with a big change in our life 7 years ago with the house fire. (more on that later). There have been many, many good things as a result of that fire, but somehow I did end up in this lost place too. And here it is, 7 years later, and I am still struggling with my weight, self-doubt, and wishing I could do this, or that.
May 20th, this year, 2012, will be the 7th anniversary of the fire. I don't want arrive at that date staying in this place I have been stuck. Something has to change.
So, I signed up to run a 1/2 marathon. Yes, call me crazy. It was that inner whispering that just said, this is the year, just take a step and do it. Now, you need to understand, I am VERY out of shape (part of that rut I am liven' in), and have not run in years. The race is, interestingly enough, on the actual anniversary of the fire, May 20th. So, I am considering this year, the 7th year, my year of Jubilee. A year the debt is gone, and the captives are set free!!
I have 90 days to get ready for this race and got to thinking how there are all these programs out there that promote how you can change your life in 90 days. (Of course they charge quite a bit for their programs)
Here are a few of the 90- day promises I found.....In 90 days you can...
1. Get Ripped!
2. Have a better you!
3. Get fit for success!
4. Write your novel.
5. 90 day body revolution
I began to the wonder...what could I (through the grace of the Lord), change in my life in 90 days then?
Because if the sky is the limit, and God works in our life to do exceedingly and abundantly beyond all we ask or imagine, then why have I been stuck in this rut? Why do I keep going back to the things that don't satisfy, the 'broken cisterns'? And if I have been given a spirit of power, love and a sound mind, why is fear whispering lies to me that keep me bound up in a lack of belief?
Do you ever feel like this, are you ready to get out of your rut? Then join me then, in this 90 day redeemed revolution, to spread our wings and soar. To step out of things that might be limiting us, to change habits that do not glorify God, or to break free from fears that keep us grounded, or to challenge lies that we have believed that keep us from living the free and abundant life in Christ, and being all He means us to be to glorify Him and His kingdom.
My 90 days starts on Feb. 21st. I have a list of what I want to change/do/experience etc... on my 90 day tab. Keep checking back as I write insights the Lord has given along the journey of moving from "stuck in a rut" to being "set to soar". He has spoken many truths to me over the 7 years of this rut life living. I called it living in the land of "Bacca" (which is a desert life). I want to live like it says in Isaiah.."do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert"
As I write this I hear all the voices that call out to me and tell me, "you've tried to change things before and always go back to your old ways." Or the voice that worries about what all those people out there that might read this post will think about me and what I write, mis-spellings, or try to do, or about my weight etc...blah, blah, blah.....
I know I am tired of those voices and want to step out of the boat, and spread my wings and soar.
So, when will you step out? Wanna join the movement? What do want to see a change in your life in the next 90 day days? How do you want your relationship with the Lord change? Are there some things the Spirit has been whispering to you to do for the Kingdom,?Do you want to break free from habits that keep you in Egypt? Maybe there is something you have always wanted to do, but fear has kept you grounded, or that inner voice has silenced the "Voice of Truth" from singing it's songs of deliverance into your life.
If not, you can always just follow this blog adventure by signing up below and hear about as I seek to listen to the voice of truth, and get out of this rut.
More than a Sparrow,
Lisa Kindermann
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